Post 4

Do you ever feel like you would love to have God one on one and ask Him what the heck He is putting you through things for?? Today I had about the dumbest doctors appointment ever. I called a few weeks ago and voiced a concern, and the doctor wanted to see me. I told them to please make sure it would be worth our time to come in because my last visit was a waste of time. They said the doctor needed to see me before anything would be done. So, I left work early and got to the office around 3:15, appointment was at 3:30.

At 4:45 I finally got called back. 4:45!! And as I am walking back, they tell me the doctor wants me to get an internal sonogram real quick before she sees me. Ummm...what? No one warned me I was gonna have to get one of those. Not only is it super weird to have them ram a wand up your vajayjay, but then to watch them take pictures of your insides with it. Gross. And they dont warn you that for the next few days it gives you weird cramps because they stirred up your guts with that flipping wand.

Then I wait again to see the doctor. A nurse takes me back and asks me a million and one questions raging from the time I first started my period to today. 15 years worth of questions. We finally get done and then I wait again for the doctor. She finally comes in and we go over all these questions again. She decides that she wants me to go back on the last medicine I was on for 6 months with no results. She said theres a lot of different types of glucophage, we just need to find one my body responds to and doesnt make me real sick. And she told me to stick to my diet. I know losing weight would only help the situation and Im trying, but having a body that fights weight loss pretty much defeats my efforts.

Really?! 3 hours of my life for you to tell me to take the medicine that made me super sick with no results and to lose weight? PS- there were fatter girls than me in the waiting room during the hour I sat out there and they were pregnant. I went to the doctor because I have had my period for 6 weeks. 6 weeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!!!!!!!!!!!! And they acted like that was just annoying but not a big deal. Buy stock in tampax folks, cause Im keeping them in business.

Thank God I have a supportive and caring husband. After I came home and sobbed to Rick, I think Im calling a different doctor. When I left the doctors office today, she said to call her in 2 weeks if I cant handle the meds and if I can handle them, then she will see me in a few months. Well at this rate I will maybe be pregnant by 40. When I got a second opinion last time, the second doctor said he wouldnt waste time with glucophage because he rarely has results with it. And she wants me to spend a few more months with it after 6 months of no results. Sorry Dr. Teverbaugh but I think you are gonna get left in my dust.

Help me Jesus.